12.11.07

look, don’t take me seriously. but do.

Posted by Lulu at 5:32 pm in love, "reality", and college

nietzsche, you are full of shit.

 i should have realized this when we first met; you smelled. i figured it wasn’t you, but it was.

 anyway, it’s not very nice to take the way a person perceives the world, thinks the world works, and shit on it.

but i guess you can’t help it, because you’re full. of shit.

for those of you who didn’t waste your formative years during high school, and then a semester of college, reading nietzsche….

 he has his spiel about power, and about being good.

anyway, long story short. if you have no control, because you have no power, you hide under a shield of goodness. you are meek. you are humble. this is good. and that is how you justify your suffering. (right, jayto?) and thus, the beginning of modern morality.

i mean. i’m sick right now. but i can accept that, because i have a relatively weak immune system, whatever. things make sense. it’s science, it’s physical. i’m taking antibiotics. it’s cool.

 but emotional suffering? you really can’t explain, or control, or fix. and sometimes, can’t avoid.

i got a flu shot over thanksgiving. so now i can’t get the flu. it’s science, it’s cool.

i used to think, if you were good, you could avoid unpleasant things, stop them from happening to you.

yeah, this is a lame analogy, but being good isn’t as effective as a vaccine.

but it’s all i have.

so, nietzsche, after all those years, the break-ups, the make-ups, make-outs, i have to say, this is the definitive end.

 oh, sure, we can be friends.

but i just realized i’m not strong enough to take it. i need my shield of good, even if it weighs me down. i can’t quite look “beyong good and evil,” like you want me to.

on a brighter note… cats! exist!

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