12.05.07
it was just like you said, the taste don’t taste like it should
yeah, i’m still pretty emo. i suppose the reason for that is because a lot of things make me sad. and i guess a lot of things make me sad because i have some pretty different ideas. different relative to a lot of my well-educated, jaded, faded peers.
ideas like reserving judgement, or forgiving every time, or trying to love everyone, or turning the other cheek, or admitting defeat, or accepting defeat when you’re in the right. you know, things that kinda take pride and kick it aside.
oh yeah, and the idea of holding standards to yourself you know you can’t keep.
hypocrisy? maybe if i’m not keeping that first standard. pretentious? probably, i guess so. i do think these standards are the most important ones. because (at the risk of looking like that sinfest kid) i figure Jesus knew what he was talking about. and that if i’m supposed to live my life for him, i should probably try to do what he says. even though i do get depressed, apathetic, angry, or just plain emo, i’m always at peace.
i also feel like everyone should have it! this peace business. it’s pretty cool. cooler than happiness, even. that’s not to say i’m not happy.
this post had no purpose other than to let you pretend you can read my mind.
Lulu said,
December 6, 2007 at 3:45 pm
jaytoooooo
look up weltschmerz on wikipedia.
i’m not in the least religious, but
i wish i was as badass as Jesus, too
Bowman said,
December 6, 2007 at 9:25 pm
Yeah, well I’m as mad as hell, and I’m not going to take this anymore!
ROOGADOO!
Bowman said,
December 6, 2007 at 9:26 pm
Also: watch Last Temptation of Christ.
Moving film. I think you might relate.
squidink said,
January 13, 2008 at 6:18 pm
Dammit, Jayto, what have you done? You made the word “emo” direct to this page from search engines and shit!
Just kidding, I’m not angry. We can still be a family.